Yesterday was the day I hoped would not come. I received a very nice letter from Kindle thanking me for my participation in the Kindle Scout Program, but saying that Remission had not been selected for publication.
I can’t say that it doesn’t smart, because it does. Today, having slept on it, writing a post about it seems like the best way to pick myself up and dust myself off.
So where am I? I had hoped that they would take it for several reasons. Obviously I was after the independent recognition and also hoped to avoid a very public ‘fail’. Another thing I wanted was for someone else to make a decision on the monetary worth of my work. I spent most of yesterday fretting about this.
A night’s sleep and a coffee with two dear friends who just sat and listened has allowed me to sort out how I feel. I am so good at not taking myself into account that my focus yesterday on what price to set was being driven by the feeling that I owe it to the people who took the time to vote for it, to make it available for them to read.
Never mind that to me, this would represent a capitulation. My work is worth more than 99c. Consider this too: if it went out at that price and still only sold 30 copies, what would that do for my self worth? I think this is a real possibility, as when I see books advertised for such low prices, I tend to ignore them because of the price. To the average reader, cost is an indicator of quality.
I don’t believe that it’s true that self-publishing is the preserve solely of those who can’t write. However, I do know, having read numerous articles about the subject, that this is a widely held perception.
So ironically my blog entitled A Self-Publishing Journey is going to end with my decision not to self-publish.
It is not for me. Call it snobbery, or arrogance, but I have to value myself and my work if I ever expect others to do the same.
Before you even start, consider what you want out of the experience.
Be prepared for an emotional ride for a month or more.
Decide if you are emotionally resilient enough to put yourself and your work out there so publicly.
Think about how you'll handle the outcome.
Penny’s book, Remission, is currently being considered for publication through Kindle Scout. You can read an excerpt of the book here and if you like it, you can nominate it to be published. If it gets enough nominations, it will be available for sale in the Kindle Store and you’ll receive a free copy of the book.
You can also check out more of Penny’s work at her website, www.penelopewalkerwriter.com.